How is it that I can be so consistent with a lot of things but still inconsistent with the issues that will determine the end point of my soul?
Why do I forget to pray so many times yet I don't forget to send that text message every day?
How is it that I'm terrified of my boss and careful not to get fired but not bothered that I can get fired from the gates of heaven and eternity on judgement day?
Why do I jump up and down boldly in the club and shake my booty (pardon me) but I am suddenly immovable and reserved in the house of praise and prayer?
Why do I think it is alright to feed my belly everyday while my spirit starves?
Why can I read a 500 page novel in two days yet I find it so hard to read the two or three pages of my devotional and bible each day?
Why is it that I can be such an impulsive buyer of clothes and worldly things using up reasonable amount of money yet I am not that generous to the offering basket?
Why is it that no matter how tired I feel, I wake up at 5 am to prepare for work, but on Sundays I feel so tired and lazy?
Why do I never fail to keep an appointment with a fellow human being but I think its always okay to re-schedule my time with God.
Why do I talk freely about many vain issues anywhere but not that bold when it comes to the things of God?
Why am I so careful not to hurt the next person's feelings yet its okay to hurt my maker over and over again?
Why does God love me so? Why is he so patient with me? Why does he stand by and watch me take advantage of his love every single day?
Why do I worry so much about my physical being and give little thought to my soul? Why do I do the things I do? these questions have answers. Something, someone is behind all these wrongs, responsible for influencing my going in the opposite direction. He will not win. My Spirit has to come alive.. Lord give me strength....
I wait.
3 comments:
Aaaawwww... sweety i'm so proud of you! I remember our discussion and i see that you're 'back', God bless your heart. The struggles are hard and everyday we battle to stay within the lines of righteousness but God's mercies are new every morning and even when we fail Him, He's always there to pick us up. Keep keeping the faith :*
I wish i was really 'back' like that hon, lol. i know the battle is not unto the swift so there's plenty of hope. Thanks for the encouragement. one love.
Wow! That is really deep and so true. I myself am guilty of doing the same thing. I like to think of myself as a work in progress because I know that God is not through with me yet.
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